QUOTE(Avvilimento @ Sep 15 2006, 01:15 PM)
I know I've never posted in here before, but I can't not say something about this...
While, yes, it's true that a lot of men are complete arseholes, I don't think you'd find a guy here (in this thread - I'm sure there's plenty of arseholes on this site elsewhere) who wouldn't give up his left testicle in a rather painful way if it meant he could know you were feeling alright. By extension, they'd probably give up the right as well in an equally non-surgical manner if it meant they could also see you smile.
Words like your last strike me like a hot iron in the back, and it makes me feel sick to think someone could so willingly do something like this to one so undeserving. I may not know you, and I may not have spoken to you before, but someone with words like yours is clearly worth far more than what's happened. And even without those words there's still the great many people who've come together, here, to show you their support that tells me you deserve so much better.
I hope you find your appetite soon. Not for the images, of course (your admirers wouldn't care about a few missing pounds, I can assure you), but for your own health. I also hope that you can get yourself through this. I've been to the bottom before myself - twice - and can still only imagine what it is you're going through.
We're all here for you if you need or want us; even many of those who haven't even said so, yet.
-Jak.
Ok...I might as well share with what happened (shortened version). I put my dirty laundry out here on this site, so I feel I should tell.
1. Involved with a guy for 2 yrs...I left my ex for him...he was my ex's guitar player in the band so the whole hook up was stressful.
2. He in short was a loser. No high school diploma, no ambition, and spent EVERY waking moment playing counter strike...but I felt drawn to him as he thought I was very appealing (his ex girlfriends were...shall I say not that wonderful)
3. I got him to get his GED, get some goals and go to college AND get a job.
4. We moved in together.
5. I put up with alot....he spent every waking moment playing counterstrike...was depressed and boring...was physically abusive (nosebleed,hair pulled out,amoung other things) his family also was not educated or well bred and there are many other issues I was patient with.
6. I gave him my whole self and 100% love and support.
7. He up and left me 4 weeks ago...b/c he said "I need too much attention and he cant give that to me"
8. I just found out on the internet that he is trashing me behind my back to people ("damn my stupid ex girlfriend...made me move out of my apartment") and he had a THREESOME with two older women only 2 weeks after dumping me.
I am in a very low place. I have no friends b/c my ex was all I needed/wanted. I felt that he loved me and he lead me AND my WHOLE family to believe that we were getting married. I am still in shock and wonder why I wasn't enough to keep him happy. He has dozens of friends, and women are hitting on him left and right and he is partying, having the time of his life. So this is pretty much what I'm going through...shortened version. Men are basically walking penises...and those that deny it just lack the confidence to go after all the women they want.