QUOTE(fellatiofiend18 @ Nov 4 2006, 04:26 PM)
well first id like to say that im sorry that you now hate me and i drive you crazy. i dont think ive ever tried justifying my cheating. its not justifiable. and i probably would have ill feelings towards someone else who was cheating. i dont think its right, i dont think it makes me a nicer person, and i havent made excuses.
first of all, i have my own reasons for cheating. im not saying they are good ones or actually even "reasons" at all. but they are things that have made me more apt to doing it. do i feel guilty? yes and no. i feel guilty because morally, its not right. its borderline aprehensible. but i dont feel guilty because i feel ive been cheated in more ways then i care to explain. im not paying him back for the shitty things hes done to me, im not that cruel, its my own personal decision. and just so you know i dont see this as something im doing for "self-gratification" and i dont believe this "personality" transfers into business and friendships. i would never do anything to hurt my friends. unfortunately, i would say i care less for my boyfriend then i do for any of my friends. its sad but true. and i have business ethic. i wouldnt lie cheat and steal to get ahead in the workplace. whether anyone would like to believe it or not, im a good person. im a good person whos making a bad decision(s) and regardless of the fact that i know its not right, i will probably continue to do so. im unhappy. he knows im unhappy. if i could end it all right now, i would. its more complicated then i get into. end of story......
and 3D dollface, im doing wonderful thank you. how are you this fine afternoon?
FF, I knew you had an SO, but I thought you had more of an open relationship. I don't hate you at all. This place is a little different than people I interact with in person. It's not my place to judge you or your reasons as I only know your online RMM persona. As far as that goes, I think you're aces! It sounds to me like you're in a loveless relationship ( or maybe stuck? in a loveless relationship) and you're looking for some type of release or retaliation or something that your man either doesn't provide for you or needs to notice about you. I don't know all the facetes of your relationship so all I can do is generalize and make assumptions. Sounds like you have deeper issues than just looking for more action out there. It sounds like your relationship has more emotional cheating on both sides which would make physical cheating less of a big deal.
Now, I don't want anyone to think I'm backpedaling on my original post. People who cheat and come up with lame ass ways to justify it still irritate me. But the girls of RMM are a little different when it comes to my opinions on that sorta thing. This isn't rate my morals. I mean, half the girls here have boyfriends who have no clue they post here. Some would consider that cheating. However, if you were a friend of mine in real life outside of RMM land and you were telling me these stories, I would tell you about my irritation with cheating behavior, but I'd also be there to help if you needed some type of support that I could offer.
I don't know if any of that made sense. I think I expressed myself clearly, but who knows.
QUOTE(ddd35 @ Nov 4 2006, 04:40 PM)
all things happen for a reason , my dear , and for you to feel you have to explain yourself to anybody here is just not so i know the whores here will make ya feel bad for cheating if ya did but lets face it if I had the chance to spend some quality time with ya ID do it in a minute ,
I don't think FF felt she had to explain herself. She was replying to my comment, that's all. You bitch about when people derail threads; and then you try to make me look like a shmuck with a comment like that when people are having a conversation. I simply stated my opinion about the topic at hand, and you go and say that I'm the evil board whore who is trying to make FF feel bad. What a bunch of shit. Way to suck up to the women by slamming other people.
And with that I'm finished.
FF, you're cool as hell, and I love your stories. Feel free to post all you want.
so i say it's alll good 
